Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Surgery Date

Dear ones -

So...I thought I'd be great at updating this lovely blog...but I have not done so...that's pretty much how blogging has gone for me for years, no?  ;)  Things I'm planning on including here include my morning routine, the healthy foods, supplements, and teas that have been making it into my body, as well as great books and other resources mom and I have drawn from to determine what I've been doing for the last many months, and my feelings and reflections throughout the experience.

Those will get on here at some point, but I do want to let you all know that after receiving results back from my MRI at Christmastime and seeing that things hadn't improved but were slightly progressing, and after a lot of prayer, fasting, time in the temple and time to myself, I decided to have the recommended surgery (mastectomy).  Single or double?  I'm going for single.  I'll lose these one at a time if I'm going to lose them both, but hopefully I won't :D.

Do I feel 100% confident in this choice?  No, but I feel there have been times of peace after a blessing, after a conversation with someone which have helped me feel that "whatever happens, it will be okay."  Maybe this means that just like many have said to me, with whatever I choose, things will be okay.  Doubt not, fear not.  Trusting and letting go of fear has been such a lesson my mother and the Lord have been teaching me...I'm still in the heart and depth of this lesson, but I can tell that it is a significant part of this journey for me. 

The surgery date will be February 28th.  My mother and Megan will be here, so I'll be in good hands.  There are other details, but I'll leave off for now.

Thank you all for your prayers, for your love, your faith and your goodness to me.  As mom continually reminds me, the Lord is helping me, He is there and He loves me as He loves all His children.  This is a great opportunity to learn and I hope the Lord will mercifully "grow me" as I move forward.  He is light.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6

5 comments:

jofenbat said...

Becky, my support is with you in any decision you may make... but most importantly.... He is always ever present for you! many Blessings!!! J.

Lorna said...

Your surgery is marked on our family calendar and we will be praying for you and for the best results possible. Always call if you need to talk (or if you just need to listen about someone else's life to get your mind off your own).

MEREDITH said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers on your surgery day. Thanks for keeping up with your blog to let us know the happenings :) love you much!

Emmy said...

What a fun thing to do the day before your birthday!
You'll probably get more presents though....:)
Looking on the sunnier side
:)

Lilian said...

I'll be praying for you and thinking of you. I know you will be in recovery, so please have someone update me. I love you so very, very, very much, but you already knew that! I just know everything is in Heavenly Father's hands and he will continue to bless you. Take care snoops! :)Love your guts,
Lilian